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The Greatest Love of All

:: my mother's love ::

apart from God's love,

my mum's love is the greatest.

Period.

felt like i was almost dyin' the past days literally. was drained both emotionally & physically. wanted to tk mc frm work but there's so much waiting to b done. my heart, lungs, ribs, stomach just didnt wanna function as they ought to. they pulled in all directions any time of the day. cldnt breathe, eat and even when i was driving, the attacks came. the pain was getting v acute & hard to bear. i thot i was havin' heart attacks when they happened... ha ha.

1 doc said i had gastric prob which i thot i cld be the doc instead coz i neva had gastric. finally, after days of pain & torture, i went to my family doc. he was the best. his med cut the pain down by almost half. well, my main point is that my mum got so worried the past days. she smsed me to remind me to take my med and she woke me up at 5am to take my med this morning... i was dazed but i was touched.

my mum's love is evident.

still tryin' 2 breathe properly & hopefully eat. wanted 2 eat my chicken 4 dinner but it ended up in the trash instead. cant really take much solid except liquids. coz they dont seem 2 b accepted by my internals. hopefully the med will work its full miracle by full course.

but i can still run! that's the amazin' part!

i thot my heart wld prob stopped if i ran but i did almost 3k today with my drills & runs. The feelin' was sooo shiok... silent release of my emotions & frustrations & thoughts about a particular someone.

the doc asked if i'm stressed lately...

i said no.

then he said, it's probably muscles stress & acids.

he shd have asked if my heart was damaged lately...

maybe the damage became literal.

evidently, a mother's love never hurts nor damages.

i love my mum.