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haven been bloggin' for days....
coz there's too many things queuein' up
waiting for my brain to process....
it's time to talk abt them.



TRUST
how much trust will you put in a person?
how much trust is too much?
who do you decide to trust?

dis is a hurdle i cldnt cross up til now....
been wondering have i place my trust in d
wrong persons.... called them wrongly as frens....?
i only trust someone when i've tested d waters....
and when i trust, i trust totally and i hate it when
the trust is broken.... been askin' myself....
have i trusted the wrong persons....



it's sad when things happen and ppl have to choose
sides.... and when ppl have to choose sides, u start
to see where they really stand and are they really
the friends you thought they were.... and when they
keep silent and not say a word.... u know unwillingly
that they arent on your side.... and that hurts.
and you begin to wonder, have your trust been
misplaced in the wrong person.... sad....~*

i thought friends fight alongside you....



well, some stuff have been happenin' at work....
and at 1st, i kept cool. but now i wont coz i know
the truth and i begin to see who are my frens
and those who are supposedly my frens....
ppl say to play cool and not be hot headed....
i only believe in this:

i don't fight for what's fair,
but i will fight for what is right.

some will keep silent coz they have liabilities
to bear, some will keep silent coz they wanna
go up the ranks, some just abandon their frens....
i dun wanna work just for credits, to prove myself
a team player and others arent, i dun wanna put
ppl down, i dun wanna.... perhaps, i'm seein' d real U....
if we are frens, i dun think there will be an invisible
silence bcoz of what has happened....
i will still fight for what is right.
even if i end up a casualty, so be it.

i used to think that some of my colleagues are just
lazy or only satisfied to do the minimum and get by
everyday.... but i now know why they all end up like dis.
coz they have been the casualties of a very very evil
poison and it definitely gets you down....
so if u haven been hit by it, you will say things like they
cant be bothered and all the attitude problem stuff....
i used to cheong too but now.... i still do my part and i
will do them well but u know what, dun critisize others
when you have never been thru the poison.... period.



in d midst of all these happenings, i needa deal
with another big question that was posted to me....
am i ready....?

ask MaoMao.... she knows.... ahahahaaA.



i'm really glad you're gonna come back in June
and coming back for good in Aug.... tell u d truth,
u're someone i really trust and though we arent a couple,
itz not hard to imagine how it's impossible to keep
a long-dist r/s.... high phone bills, high loneliness and
when u need someone, d one dearest to u arent ard....
my phone bill to u last mth was madness.... u ought to
be touched u got a friend like me man.... hahahaaA.
well, u chose friends over career, i salute you dude.
rem u asked me that qn b4 u left....? kekekeE....
really glad u are coming back for good!! :)



thatz all for now.... gotta work tmr til wkend....
miss my chill out at vivo.... sianz....~*




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