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super sleepy.... oneandahalf hrz ago....
but aft dozin' off just now.... i'm kinda awake now.... kekekeE.
prob d shower i just had.... it's almost 3am now. goshH....


let's see again....
ummmM.... it was a laughin' day of sorts today....
murphy & i laughed abt everything we cld laugh at today
or perhaps, i no longer hide my disgust for pOkey.... hahahaA
everything i said, everywhere i went.... i bear them all.... HA HA
really had a fun day laughin' and laughin' and laughin'
and we did work hard too.... he was so fake when he came in at
d end of the day and said, "woOw.... well done, well done...."

u know what i wld say....?
YAH, thanks but no thanks for ur compliment.
was it laced with venom....?!! hahahahaaaA
i cant be bothered to be more fake than him.... so plastic....~*

someone asked me how is my relationship with him today....
ummmM.... it's as plain as plain water....
it's as still as still water.... i think the line has been drawn....
the division has been divided. sad but i dun like to put on a
mask and laugh and be friendly to you when i cant trust you....
i aint got any better options....


ummmM.... went to Steve Green's concert tonight.
it was.......... a time of reflection for me.
he was the one who sang "People need the Lord"
a super moving and touching song to me....
first of all, his voice is superb. he looked quite cool for his age too
it was held at Living Sanctuary Church....

now i know how it feels like to be a newcomer.... hahahaA.
feels funny.... it still feels so much better to be at home in ur
home church... home is still d best.... :)

anyway. i think it wasnt so much of d songs sung in d concert,
it was d concert that made me think a lot.... irony....?

D church was d place i held my first evangelistic meetin' at 17....
i stepped into d hall and all the familiar scenes came back....
where i stood on d stage, my musicians, d little room i prayed
the rows of chairs with my juniors in uniform..... ummmM....
i was back in church for a short time and there was an open dr
for me to hold an evangelistic meeting... so i went head on with
d plans.... i was still quite a newbie.... but i had a bunch of super
on fire student christians who wanted to do something for God
i led P&W, shared my testimony and worked with a pastor for
d 1st time.... aft mths of hard work & prayers, hundred over
students & teachers turned up for the event.... i was overwhelmed.
but it was really something.... very memorable....

then as d concert went on, i remembered how i went to SAJC....
newton life and other meetings.... we were like d couple who
wanted to be used by God.... he preached, he laid hands on d guys
and i, on d gals, and spoke into their lives....
and d first time God used me to touch ppl's hearts up close

how i went to dis meeting in SIS alone and responded to d
altar call to sanctify my life to be God's minister when He calls....

d days i started leadin a cg with lots of ups and downs....
from a handful to the 30s to multiplications.... d road to
nurturing and bringing up d warriors who were once kidz in Christ
ummmM.... a lot of gan xiang i guess....
really miss my ppl a lot.... and d feelin' of conquerin' mountains
with my cg.... those were the days of courage and faith.

lots of other stuff came floodin' back durin' d 2hrs concert....
and i thot it would be just a concert....


i guess God's trying to say something....
and....
i guess i'm just trying to act dumb....





what do you think....?


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