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it's tat time of the day again....
for me to talk grandmother's stories here.... kekekeE
here goes.... .... .... ....
wat is the one thing i really love doin' now....?
going to cgm every friday night! i proudly declare....~* :)
dun ask me for specifics.... i know i will always be connected
durin' d meeting, always challenged to do things beyond d
human me, eatin' lots of hotdogs, goin' for supper & goin' to d
corners of on our island map b4 snuffin' out my engine at PSR.
ummmM.... i guess there's something(s) i wanna draw from or
perhaps, am drawin' from that keeps me doin' what i'm doing
though at times, d word T I R E D screams out loud.... hahaaA.
i'm finally back home.... i haven been home d entire week.... ;p
my Meimei seems to have grown bigger....
my Tabby seems to have grown fatter.... as usual....~*
though i watched d tv more than i studied but still, it's a good
start.... must manage my expectations else i will throw in d
towel very soon and get myself derailed.
everyone's puzzled why i cant study at home.... i'm not hidin'
away from home.... i miss my bed and comp.... my family.... badly.
but i guess i know what i'm tryin' to accomplish isnt no easy feat so i
gotta be very disciplined & focussed within this period of time.
Cant be distracted by other stuff or try to take d easy way out.
i will never accomplish what i've set out & dreamed to achieve
even if i've d next 10yrs. gotta sacrifice short term for d long term.
thank God for mrs chua.... d one who will wash my huge pile of
clothes over d weekend.... lol.....~*
it does feel lighter.... it does feel easier.... it does feel better....
when u can actually see yourself movin' on.... & not hoping to....
God's really amazing.... i think He doesnt just hear our prayers....
He logs on to my blog too.... ahahahaaA.... ;p
i always had d thot to write my thots into songs to Him but
i always procrastinate coz i wasnt pushed to the limit yet....
and when i finally did.... i knew He heard me.
something major happened last night.... ummmM.... if u were to
play chess with God, He will checkmate you and you will not be
sore abt it.... it's so subtle and you know that He knows every
move and everything will just fall into place and reveal what His
heart desires to reveal to you in His time.... and that was what
happened.... the concert, the facebook, the msg.... ummmmM....
d song wasnt a coincidence.... He wrote it for a reason.
i was hurt definitely. disappointed perhaps.... saw how silly i was
all these times.... but God did His work i guess.... i dunno what
will unfold aft this.... but at least i'm smiling for the first time after
declaring what i never wanted to declare to myself all these while.
but u know what.... i dunno where to start clearin'.... ! hahaaA!
there's too much i have of mushsoon for too long.... crappy~*
a fresh page on a fresh chapter..... it's time to.... plaY.... lol~!
profound statements to you rite....? parables parables.... hahaaA.
ummmM...... i'm feelin' relieved actually..... . (:
F E R V E N C Y
–noun
warmth or intensity of feeling; ardor; zeal; fervor.
i think dis word has been swarmin' me for the longest time....
today's msg was, in a word, sharp. very sharp.
ummmmM..... things are happening.... for better or for worst....
we shall take one step at a time....
-God, dont lose sight of me yet.
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