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THE GOD I KNOW

i wanted to draw out what i'm feeling now....
but i'm too lazy.... coz i wanna sleep. sooooO tired.



you can only learn some things abt a person thru experiences.
what are some things you learned about God thru ur experiences?

i learned that....
no matter how i hurt Him, He never once let me go.
even when i was on the edge, He held on to me. that's my God.



my confidant said what makes me different from d rest b4 me is,
God is too deep in me. i may wander off very far.... but i will never leave.

true? only i will know.



i was browsing my ex mbrs' FBs.
saw most of them still together in the same cgs, grown up, matured....
and i said to Him, i gave my best when i cld.
thank You that these fruits remained & are multiplying.
it brought back a lot of fond memories of war memoirs with God.
what wld it be like now if i didnt 投靠朝廷?
i will never know.

but on hindsight, even if i didnt go down that path,
i wld be brought to face my skeletons somehow too. oh well~



things haven been easy. but we will work them out.
You see the complications of my heart.
You know the knots that seem never to untie.
You taught me in Your ways.
You grew me up in Your house.
those are the foundations that nobody can take away.

to say i will never walk away, tat's hauteur.
as long as You do not let me go.
as long as i keep walking.
You will fix me up once again like You have always done so.


i'm gonna try hard leaving my mind blank for now.
dun wanna work out d emotive & rational capabilities of adam & eve yet.
focus and work hard on my 2014 goals.

i'll keep my part of the promise till the end of the year.

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