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a bittersweet christmas.
站在你心爱的人面前，却不能告诉他 - 我爱你。
站在你心爱的人面前，却不能靠近他。
站在他面前，笑着没关系、隐藏心痛。
藏在心里的话，永远不可以说出口。
只能希望时间会帮你放开他。
i need sleep badly. managing less than 4hrs for almost 2wks.
i struggle to drive as the days grew longer....
and my accelerator seems to hit 100 very quickly lately.
spent no day no night to finish a calendar set from scratch,
preparing for this n that, official n personal stuff....
am very proud of d calendar. full scale use of illustrator.
i guess trying new things n accepting new challenges and
succeeding in them give me the adrenaline rush and satisfaction.
they make you a bigger person and you grow up.
seriously didnt have time to buy the gifts i want to give to
certain people for christmas. wanted to give a certain something
to a certain someone but cldnt find it with my limited time
so ended up giving something else.... ummmphhH~
needa come up with 2 blogs immediately for things to start rolling
and to add in photos and vid respectively.... but im so tired....~
i have 9 days to complete d montage for slacker's wedding.
minus work days, celebrations, i dun exactly have ample time.
received a sos call from thailand last wk requesting for help.
pressing project for mar in another needy part.... manN~
needa find time to fetch my grandma to visit my new house,
needa bring my parents & ah ma to visit the places they wanna go,
needa bring my ah ma's cats to the vet for vaccination,
d eldest does everything and i never say no to my family....~
i realize 'No' is a hard word for me.
someone once said, "do not convenient self at the expense of others"
i hardly say No to anyone unless you are psyduck. hahahahahaA.
everything wants a piece of me.
i dunno how much more i can give.
maybe i'm filling myself up to the max at full speed to forget.
when ur mind is queued up to the max, u keep processing what
needs to be done and leave it no room for querying other unknowns.
and d mind switches off effectively when it's working all the time,
leaving no need for it to be switched off manually.
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