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i broke my record. been days since i last blogged.

stuff have been happening. life has been going on.
but i'm in emotion hibernation.



went to meet ivy and sharon for late night drink.
they were talkin abt J & P.
P went to auzzie to do her masters only a few wks ago.
and P ended up getting involved with someone there and
called to break up with J. less than a month after leaving here.

P chased J for 2 yrs before P finally won J over.
and they had been together for 3 yrs now.

so ivy and sharon related the story to me and asked me
how i felt abt it coz they were all shocked by d turns.


i gave no reaction.
their jaws dropped on me.
i couldnt believe myself either.



ivy and sharon went on the topic of relationships.
i said nothing. i gave no inputs. i was a good audience.



H told me her other half has just broken up with her.
outta the blue. no tell tale signs. just reasons why.

do i feel for her? yes.
do i feel anything? no.



im the last person u shd talk to about relationships now.
let's just say,
my heart's sole purpose now is beating to sustain life.


everything's cordial.
everything's prim and proper.
everything's according to the book.
i know my manners.
i know the rules of humans.
i know the way things shd go.
i know how i should behave.
i know how i must conduct myself.


just dun move too close.
you ain't gonna get much.
i can give. but how much can u feel from it?



never felt right telling anyone.
i told sharon frankly what i really wanna be.
she said, go for it.

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