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SORRY SEEMS TO BE THE HARDEST WORD


got to write this down.
it's part of my total journey i suppose.


i feel like the bravest person alive! MAN!
i feel like i've just killed a humongous giant! WOO HOOOO!



to the extend of my faith, will be to the extend of my forgiveness.
the lesson of the 10 lepers.
it blasted me from within.
there was someone i needed to go to.

reached home really late. it was on my heart d whole day.
thot i didnt have d chance to do it but he was awake still.
guess i had to face d challenge or lose d victory altogether.

i stuttered. i paced around. i felt like a chicken.
all sorts of what-ifs bounced off my thoughts and ....
as much as i resisted being d first to say sorry,
as much as i resisted being d older one to say sorry....

it had been a long while and i kinda blocked it outta my way.
i no longer recall who's right and what's wrong.
pride and ego got in the way - traps most people fall into.
just brush it off and don't bother to deal with the entrapped hurt.
hoping that things will heal by themselves with time.
sorry man, that's presumptuous and self denial living.

it got stuck at my throat for what seemed like centuries as i spoke.
i finally said sorry.
---- shall leave d content out ----
d first time i saw him chuckle in a long while.





sorry seems to be the hardest word, we always quote.
even when d issues fought over have long been forgotten.
u are simply waiting for the other party to apologize first.

whether you're right or you're wrong....
whether you make d first move or you don't....
does it really matter?

what matters is,
will your sorry leave bitterness in your heart coz it came too late?
or
will your sorry leave sweetness in your heart to cherish d future?


saying sorry isnt the hardest thing.
forgiving the hurt is.

don't be trapped by offenses
coz we will be (always be) offended in life.



smile (=

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