. . . .

exhausted.
physically. mentally. emotionally.
it has been a very long week.


treasure and cherish.
if tomorrow never comes.



Baby Louise.
Look at how tiny these fingers r when placed next to mine.
this is a lifelong commitment manN.
she looks so adorable :)




when i visited d baby, i saw a present that shd be your future.
you were right when i made tat classic statement.
it feels crap to think that way but tat shd be your life.
you will never be me.


didnt realize how a few statements will affect me so much.
it shouldnt be.
but it did huge damage inside.
i ought to be happy for you.



i'm so used to how we are that i wish we dont have to change it.
but i have to because you dont belong to me.
you came and you left marks that will never be erased.
wish we didnt have to coz that's how i wanna spend my life with
d times i did all the things we did together....
every little private moment with you
it felt so close to heart, i wish you were true.

you have to go home some day to where you belong.
i'm just but a playground for you,
something fresh and new that wouldnt last in your time.

i wish you didnt do so much and left so much that made me
linger on and questioned time and again, if a miracle has taken place.
your knight has come and it's time to carry on.
i will clean up the mess you left behind.




it has been a long time since i posted these.
it's very hard to dig words of feelings outta me.
thru my actions, you will know how much you mean to me.
and when i cant tell u so thru my actions, i can only draw them out.


dun scrutinize my words.
dun try to figure out my heart.
it's as plain as what they reflect.




when you love someone, you wanna do everything for her.
the hardest thing is when you cant and have to trash them all away.

you wanna do this but it's over the line. trash it.
you wanna give this but it's over the line. trash it.
you wanna say this but it's over the time. trash it.

you love but you cant.
you care but you cant.

it is the hardest thing to do.



being undercover is never the easiest thing to do.
you have to cover your tracks well all the time
you have to plan escape routes all the time
and there's always d impulse to be outright when it's get too hard.
but you know you cant.
you fight the battle not to be blown by yourself, all the time.



when your heart cant be made known,
it's most painful to hide what you should not have to.

it's not beyond your control to conceal
it's not what you r obliged to follow
but you choose to because
you dun wanna put the one whom you love in a difficult spot.


you cant love the way you want to
you can only love in the way that is accepted.

how much it hurts to love someone like that.
mummified.



你的背影
其实我一直默默在你的身后
做你隐形的依靠
虽让心里隐藏着你的秘密
看着你开心就足够



比想象中更爱你
努力的隐藏，你却不知不觉地变得更重要。



sometimes, you wish you can love like everyone else.



a million times i wish we are.
i'm, after all, like everyone else.
but when all impossibilities settle down,
expectations are realigned.

we could be.
but you shouldnt be.



all these while.
you never know what it meant for me.
all you see is my smile.

and that's only what i want you to have.
that's only what i will give to you.





this is how much you mean to me.









到了最后，
我的世界都停了电。

. . . .