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finally finished all my papers and projects.
nowadays, saturdays and sundays are luxuries.
tons of things waiting to get done.... no longer
able to sleep in super late, doing nothing but rest.


and i've 15days to drink up 1159 pages worth of information
to try and score distinctions for all my three exam papers.
which.... in any case, seems impossible.. that's so CRAP ~

everyone gets the same marks no matter how much
work you seem to put in and that feels kinda crap....
but one of my classmates made a very true remark:

u can copy for all the tests and assignments, but the
exams will separate a good student from the rest.


so.... just wack for the next two weeks and study!!
brain crash.... ~




it's only the beginning of 2010.... and i've been thinking....
thinking.... thinking..... thinking of....
maybe i wont last for another one and a half year there....
i dunno man.... maybe just another ten more months....?
needa think and plan and make wise decisions....
but i'm definitely wanting to move my cheese.


i guess one will only actively think of moving their cheese
and start to plan with determination the next steps when
one has something or someone to work hard towards for....

lots of uncertainties and grey areas which cant be seen yet
but with each step taken forward, things get clearer.
only when u move, things change. things happen.


many firsts took place the past month.... not easy to
handle and face all of them.... but just gotta face them
and deal with them head on with a double thick skin..

can only hope the guts and hard work of everything undertaken
will be worth the eventuality of a future lasting.




it's an irony.
someone who hold so much positive vibes abt a future of two.
yet, may be the biggest fear of himself.
willing to give everything with no terms or returns expected.
yet, afraid of being turned on d back and walked away.
that fear itself.... ....

maybe there's too much failures being seen and heard.
it's not easy. it never will.
it will always take two.

but the fear itself.... ....



who can guarantee fail proof....?




alright!
recharge and cheong again for the next 7 days!
have fun. enjoy the journey while cheonging for
the future u wanna see and have for yourself, ur family,
ur love one(s) and whatever else u wanna see happen (:

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