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it has been donkey years since i last seriously blogged..
stuffed lots of thoughts inside which are clogging up all over
it's due time to walk thru my own world....




coming down to my last assignment.. exams in 2 wks' time
but i've already received my new sem's timetable.. super fast.
and before i know it, i would have conquered 1 year of my studies.
with ONLY ONE MORE YEAR TO GO....!!

it has been a mad rush dis sem. i basically had no life, so to speak.
work with crazy timelines to meet.. and it's been a drag to do the
things you have been doing coz it's changed and edited again n
again til u wish so much that u can just dump the entire project.
but u simply cant and u force urself to finish it no matter what....
what i have been doing at work, has really tested my patience
and determination big time.. but it's a process nobody wld 了解..

and it's back to school projects after work had finished.
by the time u ate dinner and finished a short unwinding stoning
session, u are only left with a couple of hrs to do ur projects
but by then, ur body is asking for rest and ur brain's drained.

cant rem what things did i really do that i enjoyed.... apart from
my work and my projects.... 好久好久没做我喜欢做的事了..


but of coz i got my sense of achievement from d hard work i
put into my school work.... if all go according to plan and i dun
waste my final exams, my distinctions are still on its path..
guess that's d rule of the game.... u give some, u take some.
forgo d slack life i like, gain d academical results i desire....

but by putting in that amount of hard work, i know i've
grown smarter and more knowledgeable and skillful.. HAA.


ENDURE. 一切都会过去的..!




being different is a long lonely journey.
you think differently. but you want the same things.
but those things seem so near, yet not within reach.


a [H]+ one [W] + few [Ks]


the same things that most achieve so easily....
you can only end up watching from the sides.
you know that they are possible and do-able..
you paint the future and see it with your actions..
but even the one - you hope will walk alongside you -
do not buy into such ideology..
you wonder who else ever will....


simple goals.
realistically not within [my] reach.




was in the midst of some happenings and many thots combusted
with one another in my mind as i saw the scenes before me....

what does the problem lie?
what are their reasons for it?
why do they flicker out so fast?
why.... or how or what ....

to gain understanding, first prove them wrong and win them over.


maybe it's just me.
sticking out like a sore thumb.
i think like the rest. but i'm not with the rest.


what's next?
see how long my warranty lasts ~




guess i dun really wanna think so much now..
i've plans but they cant be achieved with just me in them.
my distinctions are my priority now.
the dream is still very much alive.. but we shall see....
let the rest take its natural course bah..
sometimes, when u want things too badly or forcefully
try to alter their course or make them happen..
they will never end up in your hands.




i used to be always giving people stuff and i was never used
to people buying stuff for me....
but as i always believe, the world is definitely round..
and fluffy gave to me more than i ever asked for.

I GOT A NEW MAC BOOK PRO!!

haven gotten a pic of it yet but i will soon.
it's cool but im a mac idiot..
i like to conquer and i definitely dun like the feeling of being
conquered.. especially by a laptop.... ~




haven had time for my family too.... although i try to..
oh well. i'm only one. but .... 一言难尽
always moving. always on the go. always not staying still.
for what?

for my family. my love. my dream.
just enjoy the journey, 44!




haven posted photos in a long while.... it's time to clear my hp..


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