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how i wish time can go slightly slower than me

then i'll have more time to do the things i'm lagging behind..

been thinking how or what or where my next step is

coz work and studies r taking their toll on me by the days..

feel myself trying to convince myself to cut some slack and

not be too hard on myself, trying to achieve all the Ds and HDs..

decided to give a classmate a ride home one day..

and i found out that quite a few of them r str8 D students!

and they r all aiming for what im aiming too..

and the distinct difference between them & me -

they dun have to work.. they simply study and do nothing.

OH MAN.

and i found out that if i maintain distinction on average,

we'll grad with honours and we can go on to the PhD

for 8mths, skipping the masters...

and someone b4 me was accepted into grad med school

with this very same degree that im doing now....

i see hope.

but i will need all distinctions and high distinctions

and i will need lotsa money to reach the top

and i wish i can do nothing now except focus on my studies.

which is totally impossible unless....

dun even have much time to study these days too.. hai.

what to do. what to do. what to do. what to do.

very the difficult ah. oh man.

can i just study and do nothing?

stressed ~

but what the heck.

i will survive. how tough. how difficult. how uncomfortable.

nothing's impossible.

the most just eat bread and water til everything's over.

work hard now. eat bitter now.

enjoy my fruits later.

加油! 加油! 加油! 加油了!!

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