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need to go back to the beginning.

the original me without the world.

I said that in my last post and that's probably one of my double edged characteristic.

my words lead to my thots. my thots lead to my decisions. my decisions lead to my actions.

once i decide, i will make sure i achieve the goals at all cost.

after months of hesitation, i finally told my boss right in his face that

i am unhappy with the work that i'm doing and the fairness that is lacking.

and i said i wanna transfer to the team that i will never ever wanna be in.

he said this to me,

you never wanted to go to this team. somethings must have happened to make

you decide to go to the team that you always rejected going..

i just smiled.

what can i say.. i'm just standing up to what my conscience feels that's right.

today is my last ride with 9468.. so she bu de....

but i have to do the right thing.

another 'returning to the original me without the world'.

somethings happened this week and a lot of thots and beliefs were thrown up..

love and responsibility..

we all started with love when we fall in love... but does that love stay strong or

turns into responsibility 责任 towards that person after time?

then it's no longer love but staying together while waiting for an excuse to end it all.

will you pursue ur one true love or will you stay by ur companion?

who will you choose?

is there a right and a wrong?

sometimes, some things that had happened can never be erased ever again..

they stay in your heart, your memory for as long as you live.

they can never be replaced no matter what next best things come along.

they can only be buried deep within you.

and walk on..

although having no car is a total inconvenience, i can finally start all over again.

purchased it too early, too young.. leaving no room for profitable investments..

after self learning, expensive but invaluable lessons, now it's the time to grow my wealth

and not squander them away as if there's no tomorrow..

trying.. learning.. practising..

FRESH START!

studies, distinctions and high distinctions are my priorities NOW!!

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