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i seriously think some relationships are not worth holding on.

and some friends are simply not worth holding on to.

i guess i have too many things piling up on me to really bother.

perhaps, i'm taking an easier belief on relationships now.

honestly.. i'm stretched. way too stretched out.

i feel tired. maybe i'm pushing myself too much.

maybe i'm putting too much expectations on myself.

plus the extra responsibilities and errands that others

want and demand of me.. people whom i cant say no to.

juggling skool and work is not easy enuff.

wanting high grades with work is even harder.

throw in things like family, $$, just tip the scale even more.

i wld want a breather. a break to the outback again.

the simple life of the countryside that unwinds everything..

but i dun have the time for that for another ten months.

i'm not tired of life. in fact, i have lots that i look forward

to in life.. how i want my life to turn out eventually.

i guess it's that period when u just slug it out now for the

eventual future you want.. and this is the part where it's

the toughest and hardest and you most wanna give up and quit.

but it's tough. very tough.

i hope i have the tenacity and capacity to hold on..

what makes me happy now, i will focus on.

what is beyond my control, i will learn to let go.

what eats me on the inside, i will learn to let go.

no point squeezing myself dry, caring for others and things

which take you for granted and never will put in as much

as you put in for them.. it's too tiring and draining.

super pissed with my school. the admin sucks big time.

i'm gonna bring things up till everything is dealt with.

u dun settle when im amicable then be prepared to face d wrath.

too many things on my list to do.

one finishes and another adds on.

sigh.

damn tired.

not exactly in the mood for christmas....

that's the state of my mind and heart now.

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