. . . .

i dun believe in luck.

but d test i did tonight was really suay until cannot suay.

36 options and i had to pick tat ONE option which i SKIPPED

studying for.. coz i thot i wldnt be tat 'LUCKY' to get tat.

AND I DID.

what the *&*!@%$!!

and nobody else in d entire class picked that EXCEPT me.

what the *!&@$%!!

FREAKING FREAK.

argh. ARGHH.

this feeling totally totally suck big time.

there goes probably my HD..

gave d marks away just like that.. wld i fail?

if i do fail.. worst case scenerio,

i wld have to make sure i do really well for d final to

secure my D.. and if i do barely mk it for d prac,

i still have chance to secure my HD..

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGH.

i totally hate such probability.

WHY DIDNT i just study that??

seriously. i feel like an idiot now.

totally wacked my own chance @ dis.

SO CRAP.

you're such an idiot for scr*wing dis up for yourself.

now gotta put in even more for the final.

I AM NOT GOING TO SCR*W UP AGAIN FOR THE FINALS.

and i still have the mcat burning my *ss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

feel like my brain is gonna explode anytime.

I WANT TO MAKE IT.

and i do not have much time left. time is ticking away rapidly.

OH MAN.

i'm so freaking out. i'm so stressed out seriously.

everyday sleep. wake up. read news. read fb. eat. study.

study. study. study. eat. study. play a bit of game. study. sleep.

wake up. read news. read fb. study. study. study. study. slack

a bit. stone a bit. study. eat. study. study. study. sleep.

tat has been my routine. and im still rushing rushing to finish

studying so many so many so many so many things!!!!

NO TIME. NO TIME. NO TIME.

sometimes, dis whole project just seems so big and heavy

that i dun even know if i can make it.

i will stone. but my mind n my heart will tell me tat i need to

keep moving. i ought to move and not stone.

i cant afford to stone and drift off... but i guess there's only

so much a person can take and squeeze in w/o such short span

of time plus exams and d need to score for d exams too.

WAH PIANGZ EH.. HOW TO ACCOMPLISH SO MANY THINGS??!

but..

all i know is, i want to and i will make it happen.

even if all d odds r stacked up against me.

i just NEED to be really really discipled from now on.

and WORK TEN TIMES HARDER AND FASTER.

i really need to.

july 29.

my will will be stronger than the circumstances.

i fear. i hesitate. but i will not back down.

i will achieve what i've set out to achieve.

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