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sometimes it's best not to read about things that u dun want to know.


was almost gonna send a 'i miss you' over
and i read the timely status update.


well, im entitled to feeling feelings.
but i am no longer entitled to fuse over them.
i forfeited those rights myself.


used to feel secure abt my rights til they made me no longer so.
that's probably why things walked down that road n i lost it all.


having the rights that is not exclusively close ended but open ended,
you cant help but feel perhaps, the rights should belong where she belongs.
the physical rejections mounted & magnified the insecurities.
the rights may not be mine after all.


lately, i was just thinking of how perhaps, maybe, i wanna keep
those rights permanently & exclusively mine for the rest of my life....

but with that update and with no more claim to the rights now,
the heart stopped. the heart sank.
the mind says it's time to stop.


even though i wish the rights had me secure & sure,
and that the rights were still exclusively mine;
maybe it's due time to give the rights up.
to where the rights should go on the main stream.
to where the rights could find the right owner.
to where the rights rightly belong.


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