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exactly 30 days to D-day.
got kinda major discouraged today. SIGH.
maybe the stress is building up real bad.
i dunno.
after 2 timed tests, im hovering around d 8pt mark. but VR score is very unstable.
was very demoralized when i posted a 4pt ONLY for one practice.
gotta go back to working on my VR doubly or even triply hard now.
well, at least both physical & biological sciences are rather stable in the 8 zone.
BUT STILL, THEY ARE NOT ENOUGH!!

really need to fire up 100x more to improve the scores.
volunteers have arrived and project starts tmr with them. umm. i dunno.
i mean, i just hope i can give them an unforgettable experience. and at the same
time, i do not slow down on my revision. although i admit, i haven been at my 100%
the past 2 weeks. im slowing down and thatz bad. i need to boost the momentum up.
have come too far to give up now.

after dis wk, i will start my attachment at the hospital. i definitely am eager to do it.
yet im just not sure if i shd commit that week to it and give up half the time that i
can use for more revision. will it be the right thing to do at the right time?
i dunno.

i so now wish i can study 24hrs a day without the need to sleep.
can i improve my score from 8 to 10 in 3wks?
it's merely a difference of getting 6 more questions correct.
6 more questions that can mk d difference between a 8pt and a 10pt.
can i do it? can i make it?

i dunno. ive been trying to try my best. 3 more weeks to go.
with the project and attachment.. i dunno.
i just wanna do papers aft papers so that my brain remembers everything at my fingertips.
no need to sleep and do papers aft papers. keep doing til im so good at any and every
single type of questions. that im ready for any shape and type of question thrown at me,
i will be able to solve them all with accuracy and confidence.

i wanna reach that stage.
can i do it in 3 weeks?

i need wisdom, understanding of mind and confidence.

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