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TWENTY DAYS TO D-DAY!!!!

aaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!




seriously, im excited abt going into the exam venue & conquer it.
at the same time, im freakin' scared that i panick on d-day & mess it up!
ive covered all that i need to cover.. now im just revising and try and try and hope that
with more practices, my score will up UP to a 10 and above.
im actually feeling a little confident about it.. that i can hit a 10 BUT i haven exactly hit
a 10 yet.. the closest was a 9. hopefully, another 15 days of practice will be able to pull
up my score to a 10.. at least. I HOPE!


geeesh. in the final lap, im doing so many things that im monitoring myself very very
extremely carefully. ive so many ideas for the orphanage and it has been such a privilege
to have met them n known them.. it's amazed how our paths crossed and brought both
parties together. they are seriously doing a very amazing and noble cause. not only i
wanna help them with physical means, i wanna be able to help them financially.


fluffy was lamenting that we r now both poor since i wiped out my savings for this 3mths
insanity journey and to help my parents out. i mean, im broke. totally.. almost. except for
hidden funds that i can smell but cannot touch. hahahaa. well, so im broke but not totally.
but still! anyway, i told her that i dun feel poor at all. yeah, i may be poorer monetarily now
but i dun feel im poor at all. i feel like a giant inside! ive done much these 3 mths and ive
learned, experienced, gained, met and helped so many ppl along the way that i dun feel
poor at all. in fact, my heart is full and i feel rich all over.

to me, money is impt. we all need money to survive but i dun need money to find happyness
and meaning in life. i'm living such a full and fulfilled life that i can die now with no regret.
hahahaa. okk, maybe except not having a kid that has my genes in him yet. it wld be nice
to leave a legacy in the world and hopefully he carries that heart of mine to continue on the
works of helping others and making a difference in whatever ways and means possible.


spent the past 2 days aft d volunteers left with the orphanage ppl. went to get 2 brand new
Asus lappies for them with the leftover $$. lower end intel celeron processor but still, it will
go a long way to teach the kids some computer skills and aid their learning. there's seriously
so much more i wld like to help them out and i see so many things i can do for them there.
but right now, RIGHT NOW, it's still the mcat that is the most impt. just 20 days more and
i can go all out to do other stuff. im actually thinking of investing over here n open a couple
of rooms, set up a base as my volunteer projects platform and also earn side income at the
same time.. while helping the orphanage to earn extra income as well. but.... while im
calculating my savings n all, my folks at home seem to be in some situation. wished i can be
there to help them out but i dun exactly know what is the situation now. will have to go back
to find out later.. hopefully they haven done anything foolish yet and i can jump in in time to
save the day! i think, dis part of me is both a strength and a weakness. always wanting to help
others outta their situations and sometimes, getting too involved and helping too much.
but.... i cant help it! if i see something that i can help and someone that is in need of help, i wld
automatically put in my leg and hand. good and bad....


gonna call the staff nurse to report to the hospital on thursday. am looking forward to it.. but
hopefully, it will not jeopardize my remaining revision. i needa do MORE REVISIONS! so many
exciting things happening! life is really fun. tough at times but not not survivable.


10 more days to Phuket!
15 more days to Home!
20 more days to D-DAY!

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