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well, tried to resist the temptation but eventually went out for my 1st bike ride! HAHAHAHAA!
it was great lah. to be able to distress a little though it was pretty hard to ride at night since they
do not have many street lamps and im, afterall, an amateur at riding.
maybe coz ive been cycling with d traffic so more or less, im used to it and i know how it works
so it wasnt that hard to navigate through the traffic light-less streets. i had fun.
so.... im gonna ride all the way to chop my passport on tuesday!! it will be an adventure.
it's 9 mins to 11pm. was gonna start my revision after i had my shower when i came back from
the ride.. then a knock on d door. S asked if i wanted to join her dad for a drink.
and so i spent the last 2 hrs having a beer. oh man. it was good chat definitely but i probably
will do an express night train tonight again. sigh. how i wish i wasnt here on a 'study trip'.
then i can enjoy my drinking session at night, bike during d day, play sports with the kids and
truly have a vacation. but well, everything has its time. and now is definitely not the time.
i will definitely be back to enjoy n explore this place. hopefully, not alone but with my love (:
cooking dinner now. macaroni w egg n crabstick.. getting real hungry but lazy to do more.
so soup stuff is the easiest to make. had maggie dis afternn so dun wanna eat that again now.
talking to my house owner is something i appreciate n enjoy. he may lack me in terms of
education and material stuff, but he's definitely no smaller than me in status. in fact, he has a
very big heart to help his fellow men and the hunger to better himself. he knows how one may b
poor but through education, one can improve his life and makes things better for his next
generation. He reads a lot to want to upgrade himself and he definitely believes others can also
upgrade themselves thru education. so we spoke n chat.. he has many ideas n dreams.. for
himself, his family n those in his village. so, i believe i will be back here for a long long time
to come in the future. definitely, much more things to do here for these people.
i dunno how things will shape up after this but this project wldnt just be a one time event..
it will be the stepping stone to many more things in the future.
all these while while i was cramming, i asked myself what wld be my next step IF i didnt
mk it for the mcat this sep.. im cant be sure if i will try again next yr. but even if i do, im not
gonna tk any more breaks. i will just practise papers to improve my score. afterall, whatever
i need to cover n know, i believe i have covered enough from these 2 breaks. it wld be just
a matter of improving the score. but if i decide not to, i will probably take a break, research
ard n do a post grad next yr on biology or something related. im totally fascinated with
biology after i started to cover the topics in preparing for d mcat. never had a chance to do
biology in school.. maybe mcat isnt my final destination after all. it cld be thru mcat that i
discover my final destination. im not sure. i will just take steps forward, move and see where
things lead to and which door eventually opens up for me. but i guess, thru it all, i have lived
my life to the fullest.. though it was boring at times (forcing yourself to shut off from the
world n the things u love to do).. but i think i have had an incredible run the past 2 years.
money may have been spent, time sacrificed with loved ones.. but i dun think i will ever
wanna change anything about anything.
after i finished this mcat, i will set aside time to really spend time with myself n my loved ones.
doing things i really like to do, pick up the sports i always wanted to do the past 2 years,
spending even more time with my family. although thru it all, i know the one who really
sacrificed the most for me is fluffy. to be with someone who is all abt chasing his dream
and still sticking by, giving the weekends for activities together just bcoz she wanna study
and not being able to do so many things together.. i know she has put aside a lot of stuff for
me.. i always wanted to make it up to her after i am done with this in sep.. at least for d next
3 mths to half a yr.. but.. umm.. seems like itz no longer viable. i dunno. just d one regrettable
thing thru this whole run i suppose. sigh. if only it wasnt this way, things wld have been perfect.
well, back to eukaryotic cell n nervous system. then carbonyls n amines.
long night ahead.
ARGH. push through them!
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