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the counter on the left says 48 days n counting down.
it isnt very long more!!
man, as much as i want this suffering to end soon, i also wish i had more time to
prepare more.. i guess more preparations will always be better than less.


from 3-4 meals a day with breakfast n huge loadings of rice....
it became 2 meals a day with no breakfast.. just milk....
then it becomes 1 meal a day with no breakfast.. just milk.

for one, i find it a REAL chore to cook, wash, cook, wash..
in that tiny space where stupid red ants r starting to invade coz they finally
discovered a land of food for their survival there.
when u get lazy to wash up, u decrease cooking. decreased cooking,
food intake goes down. food intake goes down, stomach & body
adjust and accommodate. eating more chocos, chips, cheese, milk..
just to fill d stomach w food to stay sustained.

i know it's bad. energy levels wldnt be at its peak as well..
especially when i need my energy to be at its peak during this last leg of the race.

d freaking hot weather isnt helping to mk d environment conducive to study as well.
but d most damaging factor wld be fluffy. of all times. of all days. of all .... sigh. what to do.
the heart ponders n the mind wanders every few mins.. so darn hard to even concentrate.
i need to find back that rhythm n focus FAST.

yea.. all bad & negative things can happen when u r in the midst of something so
important that is either make or break.. oh well. im not gonna let these things ever have
d chance to become reasons why i didnt do well or make it for the mcat.

it's tough. very tough when fluffy is in d midst of it all..
48 more days.


it will be a tough remaining fight.


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